We have a sadly senile old man as president. We have a narcissist old fool in legal jeopardy trying to run against him. We have people cheering wars as if it were a football game. Inflation making feeding a family extremely challenging while the media says "look over here." So i decided to think happy thoughts about music and happy little tree's.
Tuesday, January 9, 2024
Happy Little World's
My nephew had Super Mario back in the day. That was challenging to my young adult self. Of course my 7 year old nephew killed it. But in between the hard levels i always liked the sunny happy backgrounds and uplifting jingles of the game. I called it "Happy little world."
So i'm stepping into my happy little world for a bit.
I'm a very amateur guitar player and i plunk chords on the piano. Still i prefer playing to passively listening to music. But like most boomers music shaped a lot of the way i related to life in my youth.
So here is some of the music that helped me get through my misspent youth.
Day after Day...Badfinger
A middle school gym. A 7th grade me and an old childhood friend that i all of a sudden realized was a good looking young lady.
Slow Ride.. Foghat
A absolute beautiful blonde (prettiest girl ever from Altoona Alabama) too much beer and warm smell of colitas.
Three Steps...Lynard Skynard
Turn it up!
Looking out my back door..Credence Clearwater Revival
My first speeding ticket. You shouldn't press the gas pedal harder to fast music.
Good Day in Hell... Eagles
Oh well. It's been a good day in hell. And tomorrow I'll be glory bound.
Desperado... Linda Ronstadt
She hits that final note and i happily drown in those big brown eyes
Tequila Sunrise...Eagles
Take me to the Bama gulf coast and let me float away
IF...Bread
Okay. So sometimes even a misguided youth can appreciate the greatest love ballad ever written.
These are not my all time favorites although they rank up there. But they take me back to a simpler time.
A time when you picked up a telephone like a savage with no idea who was calling. A time when a cola and a candy bar was breakfast and a blood pressure pill was something really old people took. News was a 30 minute Walter Cronkite thing before the sitcoms came on and presidential concerns were tucked away in Washington DC where they belonged. Jesus loved all the little children no matter the parents political leanings and color TV's weighed 1000 lbs with a huge 28 inch screen and sometimes (gasp) stereo sound!
Anyway now back to senile old men and wars and inflation and yelling at people who disagree with you on social media.
On second thought. I think i'll stay in my happy little world painting happy little tree's a while longer.
Peace!
Sunday, December 24, 2023
Brief notes on the journey.
Autobiography of a Yogi
I met a man during my journey and some part of me recognized a fellow traveler. I read a book lightly but found wisdom that comforted my mind and challenged my doubts. I read of Father and Divine Mother. I read of men and women so deeply longing for God that religion couldn't contain them.
The journey so far:
I sit and wonder not at my sin foisted upon me by some church or priest. But as a devine being of pure joy clothed in light who had forgotten what he truly is. I still remind myself that I'm not that. When i see cruelty, fear, evil or death. I'm not that.
I'm not strong or weak. I'm the eternal expression of all that will ever be. I'm not adopted in to a religion by the power of an organization.
Early in the journey:
I had a dream. As a child. Now i'm old but i never forgot the dream. I was at the foot of a stair way. Someone said every time you take a step closer to God your foot will make a mark. I started up the stairs. I watched every step and every time i looked i saw an image of my foot left on the stairs. I reached the top and looked down and there was the image of my foot. I knew i belonged to God!
The more things change:
Through life i would hear preacher's and others tell me how to belong to God. How to be adopted as if i were ever apart from God. I believed them for a long time. But i never forgot the dream. I knew i belonged to God.
First love:
I met a man. Religion covered his face from me. A great empire created myths and hijacked scriptures and translation. He became an impossibility for me due to the cruel ignorance and anger of religion. But he is an eternal expression of all that will ever be. I could still see his light.
That old time religion:
They said i killed him with my sin. But i knew i belonged to God and couldn't be the reason for the sinful, sick world that in ignorance and fear had rejected the light. He said. Look this life is so important that i joined in the dance. But where i come from is so much more that i experienced the death of this life to show you how to get home.
Stairway Home:
So here i am. I've lost so much and i'm old and my body is tired. I'm still wanting to join the dance but it doesn't seem as intense as it once did. I'm looking for a stairway. I'll know which one when i see it. It will be the one with the stairs clearly marked.
What's life?:
So here i laugh and cry. Covet and lust. Struggle and play. Grow old and yet i still yell at football referees and baseball umpires. But somehow it's not quite as intense as it was. I think it's because i'm waiting for my eternal love to open up before me.
Yadda, yadda, yadda:
I read some books. They spoke of souls or expressions of all that will ever be coming into the dance of earth to learn lessons. I don't know if that's true. I do know we seem to be walking each other home. Maybe we just keep doing that until we all arrive back to where we come from. Maybe the whole eternal infinite cosmos is our playground. I just don't know for sure.
Many Mansions:
I know i belong to all that will ever be and in my father's house are many mansions.
One hand clapping:
It's said that Buddha was a prince. Next in line to be king. But he wanted to see the world before he took his kingship. Once he saw how poor and oppressed people were. Disease ridden and killed he couldn't go back and live in his palace. He didn't become a Cynic or give up on hope. He sought God or enlightenment the rest of his life.
Religion, religion, religion.
But through the centuries monk's and priests in robes decided they could translate Buddha's most intimate thoughts and wisdom and create the way to right thinking.
A priest a Rabbi and a monk walk...:
So I'm careful around religious dogma. I try to learn from wisdom that points me back to my own spiritual journey. But with religion always follow the money and/or the power and leverage. Listen but keep your own inner counsel. Or at least that's my advice to myself.
Auld Lang Syne:
It's been a hard year. I've felt fear, uncertainty and here at the end a grief i could never have prepared for. So here's to 2024 but before i go. I want to bless the ones i've seemingly lost and Thank God i'll find them just as soon as i leave this dream world and enter back to where i come from. Where we all come from.
I will survive:
I make no resolutions for the coming year except to hold on to hope and check every new day and evening for the path home.
Peace!
Thursday, October 19, 2023
UFO's, Tuesday Weld & Rock and Roll
Belief is the death of intelligence...Robert Anton Wilson
I love ufo lore. I neither believe it nor disbelieve. But I enjoy it. I used to enjoy talking politics. But things that used to be discussed and then laughed off are now about blaming the other side for Hitler and the wanton slaughter of babies & old people. So politics ain't fun anymore.
Rock & Roll is still fun. Especially the conspiracies and I don't just mean the old Beatles rumor that Paul is dead. I've recently heard of another rumor that's fun.
Why, sometimes I've believed in as many as six impossible things before breakfast...Alice in Wonderland
So I'm reading one of the ufo books I've downloaded from Amazon. I have some eye issues these days so I don't read as much as I once did. And honestly like the true bookworm that I am I've always collected more books than I can read.
But there I was scrolling through a Kindle book and I read about the old Carpenters cover of "Calling occupants of all interplanetary craft" Which is a fun song in itself
Then I see where a Canadian group called Klatuu in the early 70's was the original artist. No biggie. But then I see where the rumor was that they were in fact The Beatles reunited and making a secret album.
But wait! There's more. Ringo had released an album called Goodnight Vienna with art work from "The Day the Earth Stood Still " Which of course featured Klatuu!
One and one and one is three ..."Come Together...The Beatles
So now it's almost as much fun as Tuesday Weld being the Queen of the Illuminati. Which was also a thing going around back in the day.
I love going down rabbit holes. Turns out David Bowie was into aliens. But then again how could Ziggy Stardust not be? But so was Olivia Newton John.
Now I haven't forgotten The Fab Four and the occupants of interplanetary craft. But, I'm pretty sure that rumor is really shallow. But I could see someone having a Doobie and pondering it back in the 70's.
So then I get back to my book called "Season of the Witch" how the occult saved Rock and Roll. I haven't had this much fun with a book since "Weird Scenes inside the Canyon." Laurel Canyon covert ops and the dark heart of the hippy movement. Which is a really good if a little flawed book
So anyway my rabbit holes have distracted me from a world at war. Hate, violence and meanness.
Go then. There are other worlds than these ...The Dark Tower. Stephen King.
So, I'm heading for more pondering of Illuminati movie stars and space traveling rock bands. So Beam me up Scotty.
Peace!
Sunday, September 3, 2023
Conservative,liberal and me
Well I don't know why I came here tonight
I've got the feeling that something ain't right
I'm so scared in case I fall off my chair
And I'm wondering how I'll get down the stairs....Stealers Wheel
I'm so scared in case I fall off my chair
And I'm wondering how I'll get down the stairs....Stealers Wheel
I have often wondered why I came here. I seem to have always been a step out of sync. I'm sure many people feel this way so I'm not claiming to be "special." But I do feel like I have been trying to wake up from this dream for a while. I graduated high school back in the dark ages of 1976. I have gone through many stages of life. Raised Christian conservative. Became more liberal and less dogmatic. Became more religious and tried to live more in line with my faith. Became fond of pot and beer and then became more religious again and then became more liberal and finally in the middle of my 6th decade I have found myself to be sufficient without trying to appeal to outside authority such as peers, scientists, preachers, philosophers and others for permission to just be me.
This weekend while talking to my oldest friend from childhood who is much farther to the right than I am and in watching a youtube video from a rock music enthusiast who ironically is very far right and in listening to a very liberal "spiritual" wanna be guru who is more left of center and thinking of another lady who is very much woke although very sweet I find that I am indeed stuck in the middle.
Clowns to the left of me
Jokers to the right
Here I am stuck in the middle with you...Stealers Wheel
Jokers to the right
Here I am stuck in the middle with you...Stealers Wheel
Pulling the public strings of these two camps on the left and right are the politicians, race baiters, pop scientists and preachers. Trying hard to tell one group that the other group are all inhuman demons and that the very fabric of decency is dependent on stamping out conversation, civility and contact. That it's wrong to censor but in this case the threat is so great that tolerance can't be tolerated. So watch my podcast, buy my book and vote this way and you will be saved, spared and weaponised to fight the murderous inbread baby killing child raping bastards on the far right or far left depending on which podcast or book or sermon you're listening to.
One particular string pulling puppet from the right went completely stone cold senile a couple of times at the microphone during a press conference. Another idiot from the left compared an electrical fire in one of his mansions to the loss of life, children and loved ones in a fire in Hawaii. Now I'm no Trump fan but if Trump had said that the idiots at CNN and MSNBC would be howling for years about how evil he is.
Yes I'm stuck in the middle with you
And I'm wondering what it is I should do
It's so hard to keep this smile from my face
Losing control, yeah I'm all over the place...Stealers Wheel
And I'm wondering what it is I should do
It's so hard to keep this smile from my face
Losing control, yeah I'm all over the place...Stealers Wheel
The music guy got on a biblical kick about gay marriage and gender. Look, I understand. having been brought up on the bible, what it says. However, being a curious young man I dove into the history and translations and how we got the bible and found that it isn't a "book." and the writings were not assembled and made holy by angels but by a group of men in funny hats from Rome under the direction of various popes. Now they didn't write it. But they absolutely translated and delivered what they wanted to be dogma. I'm not trying to disprove the scripture. I still read it. I just don't want anyone to govern me by it or declare it to be infallible and the Law of the land. If I were gay I wouldn't feel condemned because of ancient texts that were never meant to be a science book or a history book or even a book at all. On the other hand the very liberal person I know of wants to make six year old's feel responsible for the oppression and slavery of a whole race of people that they never met and wants certain other children to feel inferior and beholden and in need of more liberal policies to be able to live in the land of the free.
Clowns to the left of me
Jokers to the right
Here I am stuck in the middle with you
When you started off with nothing
And you're proud that you're a self-made man...Stealers Wheel
Jokers to the right
Here I am stuck in the middle with you
When you started off with nothing
And you're proud that you're a self-made man...Stealers Wheel
It isn't easy having your own voice in this world. You have to pick a lane and stay in it. Choose a team jersey and never question the reasons just accept the labels you're given and the dogma you're taught. I'll be honest the two easiest things in the world to be are a far left liberal or a far right conservative. The script is already written and the path already laid out. The good guys and bad guys are clearly marked out for you.
And your friends they all come crawling
Slap you on the back and say
Please
Please....Stealers Wheel
Please
Please....Stealers Wheel
Please just accept me. I'm just like you. I have on the same jersey. Me and God hate the same people you do. Or me and the late night TV hosts hate the same people you do. I'm Popular dammit. You like me. You really like me. It's a hard thing to realize that everybody doesn't like you and everyone doesn't thump the same bible or see the world just like you do or even agree with you. But, that's okay.
It doesn't mean you have to sacrifice the truth. It just means you have to respect the other person's right to be wrong or even admit that you might be wrong. I know it's crazy. But, it happens.
Trying to make some sense of it all
But I can see it makes no sense at all
Is it cool to go to sleep on the floor?
'Cause I don't think that I can take anymore...Stealers Wheel
But I can see it makes no sense at all
Is it cool to go to sleep on the floor?
'Cause I don't think that I can take anymore...Stealers Wheel
So I decided to look up an honest definition of gender since that appears to be the latest tool of people that want to separate the good guys and the bad guys. First I have always assumed that gender meant sex. Well it turns out that gender means attitude or personal affiliation with sexual identity. Meaning it's more about how you identify than what your body is biologically. Still the identity is between male and female. So both sides are correct. Gender isn't about being biologically male or female. But, it is about identifying as male or female and there are NOT a hundred and eleven to infinity genders out there. So both left and right can take a victory lap. NOT.
I'm a social liberal. That means that I feel that a nation such as the United States should have healthcare for all. We should treat addiction and build less jails and more mental health facilities. I personally believe in a higher power and have my own inner life but I don't think that everyone needs to follow a religious text or be religious at all. I feel if Bob wants to marry Bill and leave all his worldly possessions to him that it's nobody else's business.
I believe if we took all those billions that we are sending to the Ukraine for war and instead gave every American a full stomach and shelter and healthcare we would still save billions of dollars.
Student loans should be eligible for bankruptcy just like any other debt. Our borders should be protected and we should have an honest path to citizenship. You can't not have a border if you are going to be a nation. But, hating on people for trying to get a better life is cruel because you would do the same thing if the shoe was on the other foot. I know I would.
If you want to be called a man or woman then that's fine. I'm a nice person and I'll certainly try to treat you with kindness and respect. However, No a man can't become an actual woman at 50 years old the same way a woman who was biologically born and lived as a woman for 50 years is. But, that's a personal opinion and if you want to try it I'll certainly support your right to do that.
If you are letting your 8 year old go into ANY public restroom alone then you're not doing it right. Politicians got y'all going crazy over silly chit. If you are blocking puberty of any child or minor then you're an idiot and not as enlightened as you would like to think you are. Yes I do feel drag shows are protected free speech and expression under our constitution. No, I don't want a drag queen reading to five year olds in public libraries. especially with your junk hanging out of your panties. On the other hand I don't want a fire and brimstone preacher telling my five year old they are a hell bent sinner and need to repent. So, it's not a left or right issue with me. It's common sense. Let kids be kids. There is plenty of time for your political, religious, and sexual questions as they age.
No, I don't like abortion. Yes I do feel it's the woman's decision to make and not mine. Not yours either. If some of you would support child care and financial assistance and Medicaid then your dream of less abortion would come true. But, some of you also need to stop "slangin snot" as if it's a holy right of womanhood to have an abortion. Actually, most of us or at least many of us on both the left and the right aren't that concerned except when the politicians start firing us up about it.
Yes. I was caught up in Trump derangement at one time. I still Think he's a seriously flawed and nasty human being. But, so is Joe Biden and the Democratic and Republican parties. No it's not a good look for the ex president to be paraded on trial for the world to see. It makes us look like a banana republic. Just my opinion and I"m entitled to it. I just don't have the energy to write out my reasons right now and I doubt they would change anyone else's mind anyway.
One thing about getting older. You stop sucking in your gut to make sure a woman likes you. Or if you are a woman you stop worrying about how men are looking at you. As you get older you try to leave some of the drama and putting on facades behind. It's liberating and I no longer am looking for a pat on the head from an employer or a church leader or a pretty girl. I just go off on my old fart rants and get on with life.
Peace!
Monday, July 24, 2023
Small Town!
I've been hearing the John Mellencamp "Small Town" song in my head ever since the latest internet "let's all get offended & call each other nasty names" made for social media event.
"This successful life we're livin' got us feudin like the Hatfield's and McCoy's"...Waylon Jennings.
Probably because my love & knowledge of Country Music stops somewhere in the mid 80's with Willie, Waylon and Hank JR. So I know absolutely ZERO about the "famous" singer and/or singers involved & care less than zero.
"I had the right to remain silent. But I didn't have the ability"... Ron White
In order to not be labeled racist, libtard, inbred or far right wing QAnon or far left wokester I should just remain silent. After all I take most of this crap about as seriously as I take the flat earth "controversy."
But as Willie says "I didn't come here and I ain't leaving." so imma give my own opinion. Kind of.
"People talking without speaking. People hearing without listening.".. Simon & Garfunkel.
Seems like people these days talk at each other & yell over each other. We dehumanize each other by yelling "babie killer, thug, colonizer, white privilege, black babie momma, anti vaxer, murderer because you voted for Trump, America hater because you voted for Biden, and of course the clincher "Racist" because you don't see the world in "pun intended" black & white.
For just a moment I want to say something. The only thing that really bothers me is censorship. If someone I don't agree with can be shouted down and their speech be made illegal then so can mine.
No. I haven't watched the whole video or listened to the song. Because music is something personal to me. I'm not a good musician. But I am a musician. It's something I either feel in my soul or I leave alone. I have no interest in "Rap, Modern Country, Progressive Rock or Classical Music."
However, in principle I support the free expression of them all.
Before I retired a fellow social worker told me a story. There was an old couple that came into an agency. They needed food and a little help with bills. One of the younger workers refused to help them. Thankfully my colleague who happened to be black helped them. But why did the first one resent them?Because the old folks were white & therefore responsible for slavery, lynchings & all the evil throughout history.
I can also tell you similar stories about poor Hispanic & black folks being mistreated. Somewhere down the line somebody convinced poor white folks they had more in common with the Donald Trump's of the world than their equally poor black neighbors. Someone, somehow convinced poor black people that they had more in common with the rich, white raised Barrack Obama than with their poor white neighbors.
So the truth is (for me.) I hate censorship. I will always want to hear that song you tell me not to listen to. I will always read that book you tell me to burn. I will always defend free expression. I won't always agree. But I'm old school American!
So that's all I got to say about that.
"No, I cannot forget where it is I come from. I cannot forget the people who love me. Yeah, I can be myself here in this small town. And people let me be just what I want to be."...John Mellencamp
Peace!
Thursday, June 22, 2023
Spiritual journeys
You who are on the Road. Must have a code that you can live by...Crosby, Nash, Stills & Young.
Books have always fascinated me. From my childhood I would devour comic books and books about sports hero's. As I grew older horror and then police procedural and then non fiction. I remember asking people what they knew about their faith or their worldview or their opinion. I found most people simply believed what their parents believed or what they saw on TV.
She's got electric boots, a mohair suit. You know I read it in a magazine...Elton John
But I want to say this. I've known a lot of wise people that rarely if ever cracked a book. Simply reading is like simply going to college. You might be book smart but "some folks are educated way beyond their intelligence." Jerry Clower the great country comedian made that statement.
Still some of the smartest people I've ever known read books. I don't know how you even have a worldview if you never read a book. Still in my old age I find that I don't read as much as I used to. Matter of fact if it were not for Kindle and ebooks I would hardly read at all these days. I just don't have the focus I once had. And I go from one thing to another on the internet.
He got joo joo eyeball
He one holy roller
He got hair down to his knee
Got to be a joker
He just do what he please...Lennon & McCartney
So this isn't a "boy ain't I smart because I read a book" post. Also, these are not necessarily my favorite books to read.
But this is a list of books I read in from my youth. Read in means I didn't always read every word. They helped shape or at least were a part of my inner spiritual life. Only one of these is from recent years. The others are from my teens through my 20's and maybe into my thirties. But if so it wasn't far into my 30's.
Old man look at my life. I'm a lot like you
were...Neil Young
But that's when worldviews are mainly formed. By your mid life you often are already pretty much into your views with few tweaks and maybe some awakening to follow. Autobiography of a Yogi is the only one on this list that I came to later in life. However apart from the bible it's the oldest book on the list.
This isn't an attempt to change or argue with anyone. I'm just at that age where I look back on things and make my old fart lists of stuff. So here's a list.
Autobiography of a Yogi. Paramhansa Yogananda.: I came later in life to this book. It's considered a spiritual classic. I listened to a lot of it on Audible while walking or doing chores. I also read some in the ebook. This is the only book on the list that I read in ebook format or listened in audio book. I have most of the others in ebook now. But there wasn't any such thing as an ebook when I first read them. Chapter 43 The Resurrection of Sri Yukeswar (i probably spelled that wrong) made a huge impression on me. Not because I believed every word of the account. But because something in me knows that there is a greater truth in this account. Anyway, I still go back and listen or read and meditate/ think on this chapter from time to time.
The Road less traveled. M. Scott Peck: I came across this book in my youth. I was a young man struggling with faith. Prayer and my faith was important to me. But I found myself wondering if I was stupid for having hope in a reality beyond what basic science classes stated. Here was a very intelligent Psychiatrist saying it wasn't stupid. That spiritual growth and realty is legitimate. I found it at the right time for me
Out on a Limb Shirley Maclaine: Similar to The Road Less Traveled this book hit at the perfect time. I've had A snippet of what I consider to be A past life memory since childhood. This book written by A well respected actress at the time gave me permission to go out in my own limb. It took years back and forth but this was A gentle shove forward at the time.
A bed by the Window M Scott Peck: This book showed the strength of love and inner strength in the teeth of hate and malice. It somehow reminded me of some issues I had back in middle school.
Communion Whitley Streiber: even though it's popularly called an alien book it isn't. It's an account of some really odd occurrences that were also shared by visitors to the Streiber cabin in Upstate New York if memory serves
Passport to Mangonia Jacques Vallee: This is story after story of the interweaving pattern in our myths and folklore that Vallee connects with UFO sightings and alien abduction. I don't really like this type narrative because after so many accounts my eyes glaze over. But the message is plausible and it's a classic.
20 Cases Suggestive of Reincarnation Ian Stevenson: This is an academic tome. Written by a psychiatrist who interviewed and meticulously wrote up case after case of children who remember past lives. I honestly have not read it but have read in it and about it over the years. But if you are a stats & numbers person or an academic this is a classic in its field.
Flim Flam James Randi: This is by The darling of the materialistic atheist. Nothing paranormal is true and even if it seems to be it really isn't. Another book I read a little in during my journey. After all I was searching for The truth. I don't think this crusty old magician had it. But, if you know anything about skeptics or care then Randi is a classic.
The Key Whitley Streiber: Oh yeah. I said most of these books I read in my youth. But this one I came across recently. So I have to add this. An older man visits the author at a very late time of night and drops some wisdom on him. Was he real? Was he from our time? I don't know but Whitley feels he was specially sent. I got lost reading this one in the bookstore. I didn't quite finish it But was to cheap to pay full price for it. So I'm waiting for the Kindle version to drop into one of those "Dailey deal" things.
Heading Towards Omega Kenneth Ring: This is classic. After the Moody book Kenneth Ring did some awesome work. It was Ring that I first heard talk about blind people seeing during the near death experience.
Life after life Raymond Moody: The first time the term Near Death experience entered the public consciousness. The experience itself is ancient. But starting with Plato Dr. Moody brought it to the forefront with this book.
Return from Tomorrow George Ritchie: This one about a Korean war American soldier who died and was if memory serves taken to the morgue is awesome. He saw ( although I think all experience is personally unique in some ways) Jesus descending into hell or dark places to speak and rescue people. But they wouldn't look up and realise there is still hope. Anyway it's an awesome book and highly recommended.
There are many modern writers of you're interested in the paranormal. Tricia Robertson does a great job of presenting accounts. Jeffery Mislove has a podcast called New Thinking Allowed that is awesome. Buddha at the Gas pump is another. TOE by Kurt Jimengal and the writing and any podcast with Donald Hoffman is great. But I have to admit I can't just sit and listen to a podcast. I have to be walking or doing chores or puzzles or coloring. But there is a treasure trove in YouTube these days.
Anyway, thanks for reading my old farts list of things that impacted or are impacting my walking through this wonderful, horrible, blessed and tragic journey.
Peace!
Tuesday, June 6, 2023
The Road
You, who are on the road. Must have a code that you can live by....Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young.
I once read a book about the afterlife based on the author's experience but written in fiction form. One of the most intriguing things in the book was a road the main character walked after dying in this world.
He was walking on a road that was eternal. He could stop along the way and manifest a beautiful mansion or a seaside cottage or a mountain dwelling. But sooner or later he was back on the road. Because as he walked along the road he would encounter people, pets & places from the life he had just lived.
On this two lane highway
Is going my way, moving fast
Two lane highway
Is taking me home, home at last...Pure Prairie League
I think the image of the road has always intrigued people. I know it has me. I was born in Gadsden, Alabama but I spent much of my childhood in rural Altoona/Walnut Grove, Alabama. The sight of a blacktop road or highway in the sunshine leading around a tree lined bend and through the woods has always fascinated me.
A dirt road in the country leading up into the hills and beyond. Roads could be heading anywhere. Maybe around the next bend will be a town or city you've never seen before. Magic could be just beyond that hill over there. Or even right up there on a Alabama summer day where the blacktop is shimmering in the hot sun.
I had a friend who I used to walk some of those country roads with. He was a gentle person but country tough. A simple dude not highly educated. Socially awkward but loyal to the end with his friends and family.
Religion and his own inner loneliness killed his hope in this world. An angry god who could send and leave his loved ones in eternal torment along with the self righteous church folks pretty much convinced him that there was no real hope.
The message of unconditional love that never fails just couldn't compete with the hellfire of the frozen few. So he took his life. I think about old friends and my family that have gone before me these days.
So the image of a road where I can look over and see my friend walking beside me again is a wonderful thought. To stop at my grandparents house and sit with my granddaddy around a pot bellied stove one eternal morning.
The character of the book also came upon a neighborhood store from his childhood. How fun would that be? I could walk into my neighborhood store in Walnut Park which was my old neighborhood. Get a coke for a dime a bag of barbq chips for a dime and get a candy bar for a nickle and sit on the bench out front with my friends the Hooks brothers.
Roads are always a symbol of freedom. But the best road is the one that leads home. It's evening and you see that bright yellow light shining through the window as you approach home. The place of sanctuary and peace.
Rest up and enjoy familiar surroundings and sooner or later get back to exploring. Because the road goes on forever.
The long and winding road that leads to your door. Will never disappear I've seen that road before...The Beatles
I've heard a lot of opinions about what happens when we die. I have my own ideas and some life experience to draw from. But this isn't my opinion on what we will encounter when we drop this body.
This is simply a rambling thought process of "what if?" I don't think the afterlife is a static road but there might be a road that goes on forever involved.
After all. All roads eventually lead home. I don't do religion these days. At least not a one size fits all. I still have my faith though. I think eventually love wins!
Peace!
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