Meditation

 Breath is wonderful. Feel it coming in as it flows into the nostrils. It comes up from the belly and soothes the chest and lungs. Breathe out. The whole face relaxes. The universe stops, listens. Breath of life and stillness of the universe. 

Stillness. Just be. No movement. Nowhere to go. No deadline to meet. No outer person to impress. Just be.

Form. A projection of just being. I am No Thing. Meaning I am pure being. I AM. When I drop the form I Am.

Mindfulness. Not intelligence. Not memories. Not a to do list. Nothing to add and nothing to subtract. Just mindfulness. Just being.

Death. Meaning without form. Form is temporary on one hand and yet eternal in mindfulness. Drop the body to form a new conception of being. Only to find it was the body that is new. The I Am is all there is.

Rebirth. Light is all there is. Even if you pass through darkness the light is what you look for. You might rest in the darkness. But, once you realize I Am the light is all there is.

Just breathe. What am I? Form? But what if the form disappears? Just breathe. Relax the body. Rest in the darkness. Enter the light.

Thank You God! Father/Mother of I Am. Bless the form. Help me find the light. Thank you for the moment. Thank you for Being. For I Am.

Note on this meditation:

If you came this far thank you for sharing my flow of consciousness. I have no proof to give you or any great Mic drop or just so narrative. 

I'm a searcher. I'm a pilgrim soul. I've been born again and I've doubted the existence of anything outside physical reality. I've meditated so deeply that I woke up filled with pure white light. I've come to a place in my life where I don't try to play religion or ask preachers what I should think. I certainly respect people of faith and I recognize people of no belief what so ever.

I'm with the Swedish psychiatrist Carl Jung. When asked if he believed in God. He said I don't believe. I Know! I agree. I've come to feel God as being outside space and time and in everything. I truly feel that's what Jesus was saying when he said the kingdom is within. When Buddha rejected his earthly royal birthright it was because he saw God in everything. In all beings.

I fully admit I don't understand all things. I don't know where I'm going or where I came from. That's why sometimes I try to be still. Listen. Just breathe!

Peace!

Accidental Buddhist

 If you meet Buddha on the road kill him...Ancient Buddhist saying.

I don't prescribe to religious dogma these days. I respect my friends and families journey but being religious wasn't really making me a better person. I was parroting words I didn't really believe anymore and trying to please others so I could be safely in the club. 

Chasing after the truth and running from those who think they've found it...modern Gnostic podcast.

So here I was meditating and having lucid dreams once in awhile. I keep praying because that has made me a more peaceful person. So I found myself doing a Zen meditation class at a Unitarian Church. 

I really like the relaxation and clearing of my mind. Just being. No false guilt. No trying to prove I was elect of God or that I would have to recite old Roman creeds to prove I loved Jesus.

Drop kick me Jesus through the goal post of life...Bobby Bare

I had a past life memory from childhood which I had kept from really exploring much because it made the adults uncomfortable and I can't blame them because it also made me feel like I had to debunk it in order to remain a good Christian. Anyway it was just a snippet and maybe I had just dreamed it. On the other hand I didn't think of it in dream terms at all.

Send me the pillow that you dream on. So maybe time will let our dreams come true...Johnny Tillotson.

But, I found that the Zen Buddhism believing folks had their own dogma. It was just as sterile as my own fundamentalist upbringing and didn't really feel quite right. Not in any judgemental sense. It just didn't really resonate with my own life experience or even my own childhood memories of a possible past life. 

So I decided to think about what I knew. I knew the idea of Infinite Love putting on human flesh and going through this life the same way I did made sense to me. I decided that even if I wasn't going to be a fundamentalist that I still had my own inner dialog with Spirit. So I decided Jesus Follower worked for me. 

Me and Jesus got our own thing goin' and we don't need anybody to tell us what it's all about...Tom T. Hall

So, instead of being an accidental Buddhist based on some agreements with the teaching of mindfulness I would be what my own upbringing and heart told me I was. I decided to ditch the Republican blue eyed sterile stick up the butt Jesus and follow the Jewish Rabbi who turned the other cheek, recognized no earthly nation as God's only and gave his cloak to the cold and food to the hungry. Who said "the things I do you can do" because we are all God breathed. 

So this year I'm going to let go. I'm going to breathe in and breathe out. Get still and see if I can flow with life. 

I have some years and health issues now that I didn't have to deal with in my youth. But, I also have an honest dialog with the infinite light. We all have a life. Long or short it goes by fast! 

They went rushin' down that freeway messed around and got lost. They didn't care they were just dyin' to get off...life in the Fast Lane. Eagles.

I started this blog to talk about things that interest me. Fun stuff about pop culture. UFO's and horror movies. Stephen King books and sometimes more serious issues like what happens when we die. Is there an afterlife. 

But, it has veered off into partisan politics and fire and brimstone religion and there was this ugly orange guy and a doddering senile guy and people started to love one and hate the other. Both of them became president one after the other. I found myself fighting with people and then one day I realized. 

I'm not getting any younger and life is to short to defend politicians who only want to line their own pockets. I looked in the mirror and this little old man was looking back. 

I've been first and last
Look at how the time goes past
But I'm all alone at last
Rolling home to you...Neil young.

WTF? That can't be me! I have thick light brown hair and hazel eyes and my skin is smooth and young. At least it was yesterday in 1976.But, 1976 was 47 years ago! 

So I decided I really need to chill. I hear by let go of old grudges even the ones where I was mistreated. Not because it's okay but because I don't want the burden of judging another person. I also cut myself some slack for the times I crapped on other people and loved one's! For the times I threw rocks at animals or acted as if they were not important. I was so wrong!

I still like Hank Jr. And Waylon and Willie and the boys. Honky tonk women and cold beer. Warm smell of marijuana on a hot summer night. But, my 60 something year old heart won't allow me to indulge and honestly the memories are better than most of what actually happened back then.

I ain't as good as I once was. But I'm as good Once as I ever was...Toby Keith

I still love Jesus but I don't love the religious dogma. I still love a good cup of coffee in the morning but I no longer can drink a whole pot. 

I still enjoy a Stephen King novel But I can do without his constant political rants.I still love the Eagles but Henley is greedy and Felder is a better or just as good a guitarist as Walsh and I love both of them. I still like the Stones more than the Beatles and Paperback Writer is still a godawful song. 

Southern rock is still the best and I can't stand the music of Bruce Springsteen. I still love the album "Destroyer" by KISS for sentimental reasons even though those boys were never great musicians. 

I'm in the mood. Dance to the music. We can rock all night...Foghat

Slow Ride by Foghat still makes me think of certain people from my past in Altoona/Walnut Grove area in rural Aladambama! 

I still regret trading off my 12 string for an old keyboard in my misspent youth. I still look at the night sky for meteors, shooting stars and interplanetary craft!

You can roll me up and smoke me when I die. But I didn't come here and I ain't leaving!

I have no guru but Willie Nelson and I wish you peace when the cold winds blow.